Honestly there are few things worse than feeling invisible for all of your life! Feeling unnoticed, unwanted, not making a single ripple, all while it seems everyone else is enjoying life and having fun without you!
I often feel like that. Invisible.
I’d get inside my own head while overanalyzing every little thing that happened which only amplified the feeling of being invisible. I would reflect back on a time where I thought people heard me and try to live there a while longer! It’s awful feeling invisible, having people ignore what you say, or not fully hear what you’re saying. To have them talk over you while you are talking. To have them change the subject or just move on talking with someone else!
It feels wonderful when they do talk to you, even if it’s just because they need something from you! It hurts that they only talk to you when they really need some,thing, but you take it in and love it at the same time.
Sometimes I feel completely isolated! As if I have nothing to look forward to. Nothing that will bring me joy. I don’t know what I like or am interested in. I fell so unloved and lost at times. I feel like I don’t exist. Feeling like nobody believes in you is almost impossible feeling to get out of!
When reaching out to people to talk and they don’t answer you, when you know they’ve seen the message. Being ignored like that just makes you feel even worse about yourself. It’s hard to reach out to people, with the fear of being ignored and let down because they don’t want to talk to you. Being silently rejected by them is a huge setback. Sometimes I feel like no one is my corner. Like I’m all alone and feel completely invisible!