Sometimes you are the monster!

I begin tucking him into bed and he tells me, “Mommy, check for monsters under my bead.” I look under his bed for his amusement and see him, another him, under the bed, staring back at me quivering and whispering, “Mommy, there’s somebody on my bed.”

Monsters are everywhere and some are really bad and there are some that are very good. There are  even some monsters that are bad, but for a very good reason! How can a monster be bad for a gold reason, you ask. Well I think that there are monsters in all of us and if something awful keeps happening to us and we don’t do anything about and just push it all down, we will blow up some day and do something awful. In a way it may be good if it means our life is saved from the evil that has attacked us for so long! Sadly there are times when we blow up and it doesn’t do much good. We just scream and yell and let it all out, but the real monsters don’t actually learn anything!

These monsters act like they are being attacked and hurt. Often they get angrier and come back even worse and other times they just act hurt, and no doubt they are, but they have been hurting you for so much longer! They make it seem like you are the monster and you’ve been hurting them! These kind of monsters must be stopped!

The monsters inside of us are often screaming to get out! It’s up to you if it is good or bad! As you know, we are always our own worst enemy, we are always harder on ourselves than others! Sometimes that is more true because of how others treat us! When others put us down and such, if we hear these things enough on repeat, we start to believe that it is all true, no matter how wrong it is! We may eventually forgive those that do this, but we will never forget as it is drilled into our brains what a failure we are! These situations and words tend to create a monster in us! This monster is always there to remind us how we are not good for anything, and sometimes no matter how much work we or others do to reverse these words, it doesn’t always work as too much damage has been done!

Sadly since the damage can not be reversed it often creates monsters in those just doing everything they can do to love us! They don’t deserve the hatred that they receive, but we are so used to the hell, that it is very hard to let it go and see that these new people love us so much and would never hurt us! Sometimes we can never be with anyone else because of all this! These monsters can take over and destroy everything and everyone we love, and we just can’t control it! Sometimes these monsters win, it is up to us to do everything, within reason,  we can do to stop them!

Do you have a monster, or live with one? If so, I truly hope that you are able to tame and get control of them, or get free from them and can learn to overcome all the damage that they have done and find happiness once again!