Writing to you…

Writing is hard, I often thought ”could I write a book or blog”. My brain is often full of ideas as I am always trying to find things to do. I like to write things down as I can never remember anything.

I also like to write the stories I post here, it helps a lot when you need to say something about life but talking hurts why too much with a paralyzed vocal cord.

I don’t post everything I write out as sometimes it is only written to get it off my mind and I feel better. There are times where I am so annoyed with it all that I Write it all out and then delete it in a few days.

I used to have a ton of ideas or words to write, but inspiration doesn’t hit as often anymore. Words are hard, for real! My brain is in a fog these days and I can’t remember the technical words or the right way  to word  things. I make a lot of spelling errors, and proofreading is not a strong skill with me.

I always say these days that as long as you can tell what I mean, it doesn’t matter if there are errors. Anything I write will never be great, but that is okay with me.

I have always wondered how all the writers in the world can make up everything they write and how do people not run out of ideas? But then I can create a whole alertnate world in my mind, but would never be able to put it into words. I listen to a lot of books and the authors go into so much detail, it is amazing! I get lost in my books and see them playing out in my mind. I often get sad when a book series ends as I am losing my friends that I loved to hear about. But, then I get the fun of getting to know other people and their worlds!

I do have a vivid imagination, as I writing this on my I-pad, in my mind I am in a cabin by the lake typing on a typewriter or in a tree house watching the sky and asI think or talk, the words get written down by themselves. It makes life more fun to have a great imagination, just don’t forget about the real world out there, lol!

I get confused by words sometimes. For example, the book will read “He hanged himself” and I would say “why can’t you write “He hung himself””? So many phrases and words confuse me and some people would think that I have never learned anything about the English language or writing even though I have, but brain fog and confusion has ruined all that.

A while back I had so many ideas written out and I posted them all too quickly and now the gaps in between inspiration gets longer and longer. It’s is not that I have to post often, but I don’t like huge time gaps in there for some reason. I think that is why I get burnt out and quit doing social media and things like that, because I convince myself that I have to do a certain amount of stuff with it all and it gets to be too much for me to deal with and then I just disappear for a while. Some things are gone forever at that point, and something I go back to occasionally.

I don’t really know if there was any purpose in writing this all to you, except to maybe say that I am not good at words, but It’s done and maybe you enjoyed it. In my mind I enjoyed writing to you and I slid the paper from the typewriter and threw it in the air and it soared away to you! Also the other side of my brain, I  just walked this out to the mailboxes and mailed it to you! Anyway you want to look at it, it’s all good in my neighborhood!

Incase you didn’t notice a trend with these stories, I like to end with a question or two. So these are my questions, it is your turn to talk! I hope that wherever you are, that you are having a most excellent day!

Is there something like this that you enjoy? Do you tend to get too wrapped up in things that you get burnt out?

Do you ever type lol or a laughing emoji and not laugh? I do that a lot! I find whatever I see or read/hears funny, but you couldn’t tell by looking at me! Ha ha ha!

P.S. I love the chocolate!

I am too much!

I’m too much!

For reals!

I get overly excited about everything! I tend to get very emotional about even the simplest things also! My brain activity is like dumping the junk drawer onto a trampoline, bouncing like crazy!

I am very quiet and shy at first!

I also get carried away with joking and having fun once I get to know people!

I think fast!

I lose my filter sometimes!

I speak the truth, no matter what, even if you don’t want to hear it!

I love music!

I love audiobooks!

I don’t like to talk about myself!

On rare occasions, I tend to overshare on my health & life!

I’d rather listen than talk!

I love hearing everyone’s life stories!

I am always trying to make & keep everyone happy!

Other times, I am trying to hide in my closet, thinking the world is crashing down on me!

Give me music or audiobooks  to listen to or Disney + to watch and, I’ll be good in a day!

I apologize all the time, even when I shouldn’t! I also apologize for apologizing!

I love collecting small things!

Very small things!
 

And stuffed animals!

I love stuffed animals and all the accessories!

I love dollhouses and all that goes with them!


I love crafting!

I Love designing and creating things!

I love to help others!

I love to figure things out!

I love to provide the right answers and fix everything! This I feel is one of my stronger qualities, and also one of my biggest faults! Not everyone likes people to do this! Sometimes it is too much! Sometimes it causes more of a mess than good!

I cry about things I have no control over!

I cry about American patriotism!

I cry alone!
 

I cry in my sleep!

I’m too much!

I’m a handful!

When I’m chill, I’m way too chill!

But when I’m not …. Oh it gets fun!

Sometimes I feel I am too much!

I get quiet! I play dumb! I tuck myself in a corner and just watch!

I box up my excitement!

I just watch people!

I love to study people! I love to see how everyone ticks, how we all are different and why everyone does what they do!

I convinced myself I had to be less!

I had to be quiet!

I feel I can’t speak my mind!

I feel I am not allowed to feel how I feel!

 I overthink everything! Did I really say that? I should have said this! I should have done this? Why did I do that? What if? When? Why? How? What?

I am too much, but it is a lot of fun and I get carried away!

I dream big!

I give hard! I forgive hard! I work hard! I love hard! I laugh hard! I joke hard! I cry hard! I mess up hard! I fall hard, but I always get back up and keep going!

When I’m in, I am ALL in!

Once I have been pushed too far and I’m done, I am ALL done! I may still like you and/or love you, but I don’t have to deal with your crap & I’m just done! Its “whatever” now!

You want to know a secret?

It’s okay!

It’s all okay!

Whether you feel that you are “too much” like me or not, IT IS OKAY!

Never apologize for being you!

Never apologize for how you live!

Apologizing for any of it, is like apologizing for being real, for being alive! Never do that! I know easier said than done!
 

Be real!

Be you!

 
Be too much! Or not, if that’s what you prefer!

Go crazy, have fun!

Dream big!

Do everything you have always wanted to do!

JUST BE YOU AND NOTHING LESS!