Nobody knows…

These four walls closing more everyday and I’m dying inside and nobody knows it but me…

The pain is real even if nobody knows and I’m crying inside and nobody knows it but me…

I’m missing me and nobody knows it but me…

Nobody knows the pain that I feel!

The nights are long and the days are so sad, and nobody knows it but me…

Nobody will ever know the true feelings inside my head. They will never know the pain and torture living in my head. I wish I didn’t know about it either. Living with an invisible chronic illness doesn’t help things at all. It is a very hard life and I don’t wish it on anyone!

You try and get out of your head, but it is just so very very hard to do! Creating and craftiness helps distract me from it all. Listening to books and music is also very helpful, but at some point it all catches up with you and knocks you down.

We shouldn’t be made to feel bad about all of this. I say embrace it, let it out, scream, cry, break things if needed! Visiting these feelings and letting them out can be very good for you. It is okay to not be okay, let yourself deal with it. It is okay to visit and deal with it, just don’t unpack and live there. You need to find a way to deal with it all, find something that helps make you happy.

Never apologize for feeling hurt and sad, it is all part of being human. Never apologize for being you, for being real, it’s like apologizing for being human and that isn’t cool or necessary!

People hate for no reason and it’s becoming too easy and normal to do! I say let’s love for no reason! Less hate & more love!

You are beautiful, worth it, amazing and someone is happy just knowing that you exist! When you’re out doing life things, take the time to smile, wave or even say hi to someone, you never know it could just be the reason that they keep going in this life we live!

Nobody knows the horror that is in our heads, but maybe, just maybe it is time that people learn what is like, then possibly we could all learn to deal with it and help each other out and be a little bit happier!

5 things…

Having a chronic illness is life changing and hard to deal with! In the beginning all you can think about is getting a diagnosis and relief! It doesn’t get any easier after you find out what the challenges are. There is mental challenges on top of everything else.

Chronic illness takes a mental toll on you almost as much as the physical toll. It is very hard to have to deal with all that is happening and getting past that is hard. Even once you learn to deal with it you will have set backs and that is okay as long as you don’t get lost there and forget how to get back! Leave a trail of breadcrumbs to find your way out!

There are some things that you can do to help your mental health and not get completely lost is it all.

📍 One is self-talk! You can think through situations before acting and to prevent negative thoughts. Try to avoid stressful social relationships, such as interacting with people who make you feel bad about yourself or uncomfortable! You don’t need anything adding to your challenges.

📍 Keep learning and be creative! Find some hobby that you enjoy doing to keep your mind off all your health challenges. You can also find an app or online course and learn something new, like a different language or a new skill. Rediscover an old skill or hobby that you had enjoyed doing but quit for some reason.

📍 Give or volunteer! Find a way to offer kindness to others, no matter how small! Simply smiling at someone and saying hello or asking how they are doing can help someone tremendously! You could find a way to volunteer some of your time, no matter how simple and short of a time period, you could be a huge help to others and ease you troubled mind at the same time.  You can even just listen to others, even online and help ease their frustrations.

📍 Take notice and enjoy the world around you! You could go for a walk or a drive and enjoy all the world has to offer! Even just relaxing in your yard and watching the world and people around you is fun!

📍 Play a game! Games are good time killers and distractions! So whether it is a video game. Card game, board game to a game on your phone or tablet, go get lost in them for a while and clear your mind! Just remember to come back to reality for a while!

What are some ways that you keep your mental health positive? What are some things that you do to distract you from all your health challenges for a while?