Nobody knows…

These four walls closing more everyday and I’m dying inside and nobody knows it but me…

The pain is real even if nobody knows and I’m crying inside and nobody knows it but me…

I’m missing me and nobody knows it but me…

Nobody knows the pain that I feel!

The nights are long and the days are so sad, and nobody knows it but me…

Nobody will ever know the true feelings inside my head. They will never know the pain and torture living in my head. I wish I didn’t know about it either. Living with an invisible chronic illness doesn’t help things at all. It is a very hard life and I don’t wish it on anyone!

You try and get out of your head, but it is just so very very hard to do! Creating and craftiness helps distract me from it all. Listening to books and music is also very helpful, but at some point it all catches up with you and knocks you down.

We shouldn’t be made to feel bad about all of this. I say embrace it, let it out, scream, cry, break things if needed! Visiting these feelings and letting them out can be very good for you. It is okay to not be okay, let yourself deal with it. It is okay to visit and deal with it, just don’t unpack and live there. You need to find a way to deal with it all, find something that helps make you happy.

Never apologize for feeling hurt and sad, it is all part of being human. Never apologize for being you, for being real, it’s like apologizing for being human and that isn’t cool or necessary!

People hate for no reason and it’s becoming too easy and normal to do! I say let’s love for no reason! Less hate & more love!

You are beautiful, worth it, amazing and someone is happy just knowing that you exist! When you’re out doing life things, take the time to smile, wave or even say hi to someone, you never know it could just be the reason that they keep going in this life we live!

Nobody knows the horror that is in our heads, but maybe, just maybe it is time that people learn what is like, then possibly we could all learn to deal with it and help each other out and be a little bit happier!


I need a vacation!

I need a vacation!

This is something we all keep telling ourselves all day on not so good or crazy days!

What we don’t realize sometimes is that we don’t need a vacation, a vacation won’t change our circumstances, just our surroundings! We don’t need a vacation from our lives, or our home, or family & friends… We need a vacation from our head!

Next time you feel like you need a vacation, ask yourself what you’re trying to escape from and tackle it head on! A vacation won’t solve any problems in your life no matter how fun & relaxing it may be, they will be there waiting for you when you get back, just like drugs/alcohol won’t solve the problems in your head, they’ll be there when you sober up!

Some things aren’t easy to handle alone! When things get to be too much and you feel that you need a vacation, talk to somebody and get their thoughts or help with the situation, or just find someone to just listen! If you don’t feel like talking to anyone then send out a prayer request and hit your knees and give all to God as there is more power in prayer than there is in anything that we could ever do!

God is in control, no vacation needed!